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No.10860 : Anonymous Stalker [2022-01-13 14:57] [Report] 1642103851891.jpg (26003 B, 640x480) [YIS] [GIS] [SNAP]
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Dearest Cracky-chan,

It's been a while since we last spoke, and I realize that there's quite a bit of catching up to do. I heard you're lurking .71 now. That's fantastic! It's actually a great place to meet people. Speaking of meeting people, I always thought you should "trade up" for somebody better. You should ditch the turk. Maybe try another slav? Though this time go with someone a little more Northern.

Despite your own penchant for trying to convince the Stalkers you don't like their creepy attention while at the same time shamelessly publicizing yourself, in a way you still owe me after last time. People were in danger of completely forgetting about you. In no small part due to my amazing work as your unofficial publicist, I managed to get the obsessionball rolling all over again. All the way back to Oxford, in fact. All the way to your mother's tiny, funky, very English side-by-side house. When your suicidegirls career takes off, you'll have ME to thank for the fact that all the insignificant internet plebs with more dollars than braincells are able to recognize you.

See? I'm still trying to be a helpful guy, even after you turned your back on me.

I think we have a bit of an understanding here, Lia. If this is going to follow the same give-take patterns of all your past relationships, you'll be happy to know that I'm more than willing to provide regardless of the circumstances. I know that it's only a matter of time until everybody finds out that jews did wtc, and when that happens all of your family's heathengold will run out. I'm talking real gold here, hun. The kind that lets you eat and stink and sit on the computer all day without a care in the world. Not that shit you farm in WoW.

We can come to a sort of agreement. Since you're soon to be homeless, and the loli I'm cohabitating with is too inexperienced to understand how to cook (OR GIVE A DECENT BLOWJOB. SERIOUSLY WTF), it would likely be beneficial for you to "shack up" with the two of us. Your living conditions would be very much the same - you'd be living in a room the size of your flat with your bed and computer, and you'd have all the time in the world to live in your masturbatory MMO fantasyland. There'd only be two real differences. First, you'd be expected to cook. This'll maybe take up, like what? An hour a day maximum. It'll be your only real obligation to the household.

Secondly, the person coming to molest you periodically won't be your father.

I think that should be more than enough to convince you. Hit me back and lemme know what you think.

Until then,

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That's pretty curt, by my standards. I don't know why I didn't sit him down somewhere quiet and give him a full interview. But then again, I didn't really know anything back then.

No.10862 : Anonymous Stalker [2022-01-13 14:59] [Report] 1642103985531.jpg (463820 B, 1080x1920) [YIS] [GIS] []
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I show you here, what I hid and tried to fix. I thought for a while, that the pain was worth escaping the embarrassment.

I stopped, for no reason. Now, I could not be more proud of any part of my body.

I was in a bit of a funk. Having just dropped out of university, I had very little to do with my time. Having split temporarily with my missus meant that I didn't have any great need for money and so I didn't hurry out and get a job. I was still making enough as a sponsored student to get by, and my sponsoring agency was so far unaware that I had skipped out on my studies. The cheques kept coming in. The entire arrangement enabled me to waste a lot of time. I would often lament my lack of motivation. All the time in the world, and nothing to do with it.

I had also stopped taking my antidepressants, because they made me feel too numb. I didn't notice any difference when I stopped either. I was still numb.

Well not entirely. There was (and is and probably always will be to some minor extent hanging out on the fringes of my heart) cracky-chan. I had my moods. Ups, and downs, as expected. The medication had ground them out into one miserable plateau. But cracky - or my delusions and fantasies and investigations therein - always found some way to dig in her little heels and make my life interesting. Not good or bad. Interesting.

I spent days at the computer. Thread after thread. I get the impression that alot of the people I know from .71 were put there in the first place because of the linking and the threading I was doing at that time. I didn't sleep. I'd stay up all night, drive my ex to work in the morning, and then stay up all day. I had very little understanding of what was happening in the world out there. I didn't really care, and really it doesn't matter.

An odd rumour came up around this time which I heard from a fellow who's screenname soon escaped me. I thought he was woefully out of the loop when I heard it the first time. Backwoods anon had contacted me after one particularly odd thread where I said, "I love cracky so much, I want her to bleed ^_^" or something of that sort.

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I did laugh. I laughed alot. Everybody who's ANYBODY knows cracky's a good little girl who lives with her mum and dad in a contextually palatial house in Oxford!

I promptly let the idiot fall off my contact list, and rid myself of the logs while cleaning up a few days later.

Being the frontman for a shadowy circlejerk is hard work. I had to act like I knew more than I did, and I had to put up with the fact that everybody resented me for what amounts to no real reason at all. But the position has advantages. I'm not a fantastic stalker at all, but my unique position meant that I was located right at the stem of this branching grapevine. Everything going up or down passed right through me.

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A pic came through the grapevine. Now, this happened from time to time naturally. Cracky threads would be seen by certain people who were sitting on huge piles of crackyshit, but had no real knowledge of how valuable their little jpg's were. Like an internet antiques roadshow this long lost content would be dredged out, appraised by the experts, and then fed to our esoteric obsession.

It wasn't the oxford house, that's for sure. The aesthetic was all off. It was a group of people, not like a family... more a class photo for a very small school. I don't recall how many were there, but these young teenagers and pre-teens were all lined up smiling for the shot. There, hiding out near the back, was that unmistakable head of red hair.

My co-stalker was happy to provide details. It was, if you'd believe it, a photo quite serendipitously rightclick->saved from some youth-boarding group's web community. The group was stationed in LA. L fucking A.

I got the word out to my fellows and fellettes. None of us being LA natives, or even west-coasters, we were all going to fly down and check it out together. All of us dropped what we were doing. Actually come to think of it, none of us were doing anything that would make too much noise when dropped in the first place. We just booked flights and went there.

First impressions of LA? Well, there weren't any. I wasn't even conscious of the fact it was LA. I wasn't conscious of the fact it was real life for that matter. When I met with my stalkers, we barely spoke. We were like ghosts, silently floating forth trying to find somebody worth haunting. We drifted down to the addy of the youth-home. It was in a pretty ratty neighbourhood. The whole lot of us piled out of the car together. A bunch of Mexicans (or Kosovars knowing my luck) were eyeing our rental car. We went into the big box apartment building together. Considering it was 2 in the afternoon on a work/school day, I was surprised to see so many people just hanging out in their doorframes and running around the halls. Up a flight of stairs, and again we hooked local eyes as we made our way to the end of the hallway. We got to what I was told was the right door.

Somebody knocked. Honestly, the identities of my partners in -this- crime aren't really relevant. I know who knocked. It could have been any of us. There wasn't an answer. There wasn't a sound. For a place with twelve youngins crammed into one apartment sized area, you'd expect a little noise?

I checked back down the way we came. Nobody in the corridor now. The eyes had wiggled free and shut themselves safely away. I mentioned this, though not in as eloquent terms. Knocker stalker knocked with his shoulder this time. The frame gave way, and the door flung into the room and embedded the doorknob into the gypsum. We all walked in.

The interior was burnt with char. Most of the furniture was similarly crisped. There was no sign of any people in the main room. For some reason what stands out in my mind is a gigantic stain of ketchup and mustard on the floor in the open kitchen. Two large bottles must have been upended onto the floor after the fire had tongued the linoleum black. The bottles, however, were gone.

Without a word, or a gasp, we fanned out and began to search. I was shit scared, personally. I don't think any of us little internet boy-scouts making our first trip into real life wasn't terrified. However here, in real life, I suppose I had the advantage over my internet-centric peers. I went to a side room filled with empty metal frames of beds and began to inspect the walls. Beside one particular frame, located in the corner, I saw the walls had charred bits of pictures and artwork hanging. I figured, correctly I suppose, this would be Hers. A little bed-table with a single drawer sat next to Her mangled, twisting iron coil framework. Luckily the contents weren't damaged when the room was kissed by flame. I dug some photographs and a small notebook out, then I closed the drawer and left the room.

My cohorts were still checking cupboards, counters, cabinets, and the like. I casually walked out of the door. None of them noticed. This was actually the first dishonest thing I'd done through the whole debacle. Unless you count all those times I lied to my fiancee, and said I loved her.

That got the heart pumping though! Nobody watched from the other rooms in the apartment as I left. I figure they didn't want to know who we were or what we were doing. Not only for their own sake, but likely out of some pity for our status as unwittingly novice participants in whatever it was that was happening around those parts.

I got into a taxi. Told him to take me somewhere. Where? Around the block. No, to a hotel. Not the closest, but next closest.

I didn't even dare to peruse my find there in the taxi. Gods no. I wanted some privacy to look it over and see what there was.

There wasn't much. The photos were of the apartment and Her fellow occupants. Meant nothing to me lost from the context of Her memory. The only one of Her, with that gracefully fragile neck and killing eyes, was miss L out on the street with some blonde haired boy who was sporting a bowl cut. The notebook, which I went through, was unfortunately not a complete diary. I guess She's more into the online journals, instead of the type to keep up a pen-and-paper record. The book had doodles, notes like, "don't forget to pick up ketchup", and phone numbers. As I flipped a small wallet sized photo of the above mentioned bowl-cut kid fell out. I read the page. "8:00pm, (some dumb cafe), every day."

It was within walking distance. Since my time the army, walking distance was anywhere I could walk a return trip to and back from in a full day. It was in fact nearer Her apartment than my hotel, and it brought me uncomfortably close to the main roads where my spurned stalker crew would be driving down during their egress.

Laptop in hand, I left. When I arrived at the junky-cafe I checked my watch. About half an hour early. I realized that with my tanned skin and black hair I wouldn't stand out badly amongst the mostly, uh, "colourful" inhabitants of that neighbourhood. I guess I passed as a well to do Mexican. The white kid, with the bowl cut? Now he must be the oddity.

He came pedalling down the road on a bike around 8. Despite what I thought, none of the people milling about on the street paid him any mind. He entered the cafe and began to look around. He glanced at me, and waited until it was a solid gaze. I turned the laptop screen towards him. Sup 4chan?

"Where is she?" I started
"Are you the police?"
This was before I was going to be a cop, so I didn't think that was ironic at the time.
"No."
"Are you going to call the police?"
The notion of getting them involved hadn't even occurred.
"No."

He came to my computer, and typed something into the url bar.

"It's been a few weeks, at least." And then the kid left.

No.10864 : Anonymous Stalker [2022-01-13 15:01] [Report] 1642104070689.jpg (33876 B, 640x480) [YIS] [GIS] []
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I turned my laptop back. The url. Simple. It was really simple. I'm not going to SAY what it was, but it was a simple URL. You'd think somebody with a conscience who happened to find it would say, tell somebody? But no. Apparently not. Then again, there I was, and I didn't consider it at the time either.

I hit enter. The website advertised the rental services of a bus. The bus was painted black, had bars on the window. There was a fucking picture of it on the homepage. I read around a bit. Right there in plain second-rate English, was a form where you'd put your credit card information, and your address, and they'd bring the bus down to pick you up. With a loli of some description, and all the privacy you wanted.

I really regretted the fact that I didn't bring my gun. I was out of place here not having one on me, in fact.

Did I make a booking though? No. I didn't really want these kinds of people to have any information on me. For sure, they'd make sure they knew who I was before they'd engage in this level of illegal business with me and I couldn't really fake it out. Somebody who talks to these guys must have seen me, and I thought it was fair to assume they'd recognize me.

You're going to think I'm an idiot for this. Really, you are because it's so stupid. I hung out at gas stations in the area and watched for people buying diesel in drums. I assumed they wouldn't just drive the big bus down there and have somebody hop out and pump in a full tank. These guys must be more careful than that to stay in operation this long.

I suppose there aren't really any monsters out there. Like, sure we act monstrously sometimes, but we're all humans. We all have to pee.

A big black bus showed up about three days into my vigil. This guy got out and ran to inside. A second later, just as I had stood up and was about to follow, he blew past me key in hand to the bathroom on the side of the Amoco or Texaco or whatever it was. Cracky works in mysterious ways, I guess. I suppose the next part would've been ideal for knocker-stalker, but my shoulder did just fine. There was so little room in the bathroom, that I knocked the door into the fellow as he was standing in front of the mirror. His head fell into the mirror, and they both broke with a crash.

What happened next, I suppose I would later come to use the term "interrogation" for it. But it's not like they're supposed to go. Before I even said anything to him, before he had even started to peel himself up from the sticky restroom floor, I took the keys. Both bathroom and the ringful from his pocket. I ran back to the bus. He'd left the side bus door open, in fact. I had to use a key to get past the wrought iron cage door to the next compartment.

Chains, shackles. I guess that's as far as I want to go on about the interior, and what I found in there. It was clean. Really... clean. No girls though. No cracky. Darkness inside. Complete darkness too, except for whatever light was shining from the wide front window behind me. I went to talk to my driver.

He was still laying down, holding his head and grimacing. There was quite a bit of blood on the floor. He had shards of glass embedded into his face. I didn't so much as talk actually. I showed him the picture. He looked up at me and began to speak in some kind of Mexican. I raised the picture, so it was between his eyes and mine. Again, more Mexican.

"English!" I was more than a little impatient. And really, I know that this black bus must naturally attract attention, and somebody must have seen what I was doing. So I really didn't want to stand around. I was bouncing up and down. I was shaking. I was ready to call it quits on this whole deal, sprint out the door, and back onto a plane home.

"Not us anymore!"

You know what I should have done? I should have kept him. I should have taken him and the bus out, shackled him up, and tried some of the complimentary amenities his service offered on him. This is in retrospect. This is me speaking after I've had everything I've ever wanted and have become jaded and bored with it. This guy I'm telling you about? Ostensibly it's "me." I refer to him as "I". But it's a different guy, driven by different things. I didn't really care about the why and the how back then. I just wanted to know
"WHERE!"
Maybe, in different situations, where the other guy doesn't have a lawyer, or any charter rights, the one word interrogation works best. It's clear what is wanted, and it's clear there will be consequences if the answer isn't satisfactory.

That night actually, I went to the where. I walked. It wasn't quite within walking distance this time. The sun set and I paid no mind. The sky was empty. No moon, with no tidal pull dragging me forwards. No guiding stars either. They were all drowned out by streetlamps that were caught in an opressive orange smog haze. The streetsigns were all foreign and unfamiliar. Each road looked identical as I peered down one street and then up its perpendicular twin. Endless lines of lights spooled off in threads, crisscrossing each other, tangling geometrically into a gridlock labyrinth that provided me no help finding the way. Neither God(dess) nor man had any sympathy for me and my search.

But despite that universal apathy, I did find my way. It's instinctual for me to find my way. Maybe I could get lost elsewhere, in a land where intuitive knowledge of the landscape wasn't passed through me ancestrally. Maybe if this was Moscow I'd be shit out of luck. But here in North America, there's no way. There was a door, with a trail of people spilling out of it. A line of people all waiting patiently in single file. I walked by them. I looked at them, and they didn't look at me. They all just stood there, silently. Dully they stood in queue watching the back of the next's head. I followed the line in, turning sideways and squeezing past some nameless person standing in the doorway. The line continued to the right, around the perimeter of the room, and up the stairs on the left. There was screaming.

I neared the stairs. I could make out the screaming now. No. Stop. It's cold. It's so cold.

I began to hurry up the stairs, past the single file crowd. The line, with all its dozens of calmly waiting people, led to a room directly atop the stairs. The screaming became clearer. I could hear Her inflections. "nO!" with a sharp scream for an O. "Stohohop", with linked sobs constricting her battered tone. "It's cOOOOld!" Words and thoughts replaced by gutteral groans of pain.

I pushed the last person in line out of the way. I ran in without first looking or thinking. There was a crib. A woman, dressed in olive army surplus pants and army surplus shirt, was standing above the crib. She held her son, no older than 3. Both dressed the same. White. Blonde hair. The boy held a long metal pole. He was prodding vigorously into the crib. Each prod he put into my Cracky made Her scream in a way that liquified my bones.

I ran to the crib. I didn't have time to take a good look, but I saw Her. For the first time with my own eyes, I saw Her. She was laying in the crib, arms and legs obviously damaged beyond repair. She was more red than white.

I picked her up. The woman and her son didn't seem to mind. I ran out the door, holding Her. The crowd didn't try to stop me. They didn't even turn to look. They all just continued to stand there, waiting for their turn with the empty crib in the empty room.

I didn't realize it then, why nobody cared. Why the olive drab lady didn't care. Why the crowd didn't care. Why nobody running the black-bus came after me. Why my stalkers didn't track me back down. Or even, why She didn't care. The eyes weren't those soul-fuckers anymore. She never looked at me, or said anything to me either. I never heard Her voice again.
I suppose it became apparent soon, very soon after why. I took her home. To my home. To my little dimension of unreality where nothing else mattered. To my own cage, where there were no cracks for light to filter through. I wasn't the savior. I was another link. The last link in a chain that shackled her to this shit.

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I know you don't want further intrusion, hence I feel somewhat guilty for writing this. Although, I feel it is healthy to clear the air from time to time, and that's why I'm writing to you now. I feel you deserve an explanation for my actions that isn't hindered by alcohol, 'dutch courage', or any other form of bravado.

When we first spoke around three years ago, that was probably the closest I've ever been to my true self. I would never seek approval from peers, acceptance, nor credit for that which was not due. Unfortunately, I have an addictive personality; if something intrigues me, it often ends up consuming me, and so I let myself slip. I allowed myself to become influenced by my ego, and so I was drawn into a world of my own. I never cared for this 'Cracky' aberration, or anything else so trivial. I set my aspirations far too high, I bid hard and fast, I never walk away from a challenge. I became fascinated with the only thing I felt worthy of attention: you. I was infatuated, but yet mortal. You were but a wisp of fresh air, yet so cold, so far away. I don't know why I felt this way. Deluded perhaps? The mysticism surrounding you certainly helped I guess, I really don't know. I allowed myself to become enthralled to an unnatural point. I violated my own character, the very ethical principles I espouse. I guessed your passwords, the how easily explained, but why? I do not know. As it stands, it was surely the grossest and most evident violation of privacy I can lay claim to, and for this I am ashamed. I am not proud of it, I cannot justify it, I cannot excuse it. I can only mourn the decay of trust and animosity that followed. The same goes for how I bothered you in World of Warcrack the other day - I was driven by my own boredom, I wanted to speak with you directly, to seek confidence, but I wasn't sure how; and when it came to saying what mattered, I ran away. Anyone should be able to enjoy their life without that level of intrusion. Anyone would have reacted with far less tolerance and respect than you showed; and for this I thank you. It really is a credit to your character. Ages ago, wars were fought over women like you, and that is no small compliment.

Really, I've been an enormous dick about the whole thing. Regardless of you take this letter, I want you to know I don't have an ulterior motive, not this time. I have no delusions of grandeur. This isn't some sort of spin to gain your sympathy or trust, this is how I truly feel. I don't want to read your journal. I don't want any undue love or attention. I don't want your photobucket accounts. I don't want to impose myself on you. I do not want, nor do I expect, anything from you that is not given freely. I do believe I have your forgiveness, and that means a lot to me. There is but only one thing I would ask of you: Absolution. Allow me to right the wrong. Trust is not given freely, trust is earned. Let me do this at least. I know this sounds like a selfish request, I would like you to know this is not only for my sake, but also yours. When we first chatted, my heart raced. Conversation wasn't a chore like with everyone else. Believe me, I regret the way things turned out, and I want to set it right so bad, you have no idea.

I really don't know how you feel about this, and I wouldn't want to hazard a guess. I have guessed and presumed what you might want for to long, and have been wrong so many times. At least tell me how you feel. If you would prefer never to see or hear from me again, please tell me. If you hate me to a point where all wrong is beyond repair, I understand, but if there is only one thing to be understood from this letter, let it be this: I am sorry that it came to this, and I want you to know that for my part; all stalking, by whatever means, is over.

This is goodbye, but only if you want it to end this way.

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>>22
I have only given one girl a piece of jewelery in my entire life. I spent weeks reading about protective magic and symbols and drawing up designs. Finally I found a expat Russian silversmith in Sokcho that I was able to explain this to. He was a member of the Orthodox Church and after drinking with him a handful of times we had worked out a way to incorporate a system of of sigils based on dozens of faiths and creeds and layered with a great deal of symbolism all worked around the idea of guarding the one who wore it from all harm and misfortune. I payed several thousand dollars to buy a cross that had once hung at the entrance to a monastery in Estonia before the Soviet era. The sliversmith crafted a press that had all the symbols we had agreed upon worked into it's face, and he smelted the cross to make 23 medallions with the symbol on them. Then he fashioned 107 links and joined them with the medallion placed around them. I took the now completed bracelet to Manggyeongsa on my next leave and in the melted snow urn I prayed over it for three hours. When I returned from leave I spent the next weekend traveling to Seoul to visit Myeongdon Cathedral where I payed a layman to give me access to the alter one evening, and laid out over the relics of nine martyrs I asked for their intercession for the one the would bear this work and that I would bear any time in purgatory for their safety. Since the design incorporated an omamori for yaku yoke I called up a friend in Okinawa that owed me a favor from when I traveled from Kaiserslautern to Morag to repair his ICC on a weekend. I had him take the bracelet to Mahataki Jinja for the joonan matsuri telling him it was a chance to get drunk and celebrate. He talked to the bearers and had it placed upon the mikoshi and carried through the festival. When I go the bracelet back I sent it off with some badges and buttons wishing for the best for someone that I cared deeply about.

So yes I am creepy. I believe that reminding yourself that even though you aren't there you are doing the everything you can(even if it's nothing) for someone who is important to you is as important, if not more important to you yourself as a man.

Even if you find out that she was stringing you along because she thought it was funny and she could get things from you.

Even if she turns cold and ignores you the only time you ask her for solace and comfort.

Despite the fact she sends the only gift you sent her that had meaning back to you broken and destoryed, and keeps the toys so she can play with them.

Right up until that point when you have nothing left and you want the world to burn. Than you spend the next three years tracking down everything you can about her and her turkish lover in Chicago. Than you spend the time to find out how his family makes enough money to support his fatass sitting on the internet all day. Than you get a motel room for a few weeks and poison her cat before putting the corpse in the street near her house to be run over. Than you plant drugs on his sister and try to frame her only to have her dipshit boyfriend do them before the cops can eve be called.

BUT THAT'S OKAY YOU GOT LOTS OF PLANS

Like you figure out the best way to destroy his father's career and cripple him financially because you know how shallow she is and how that if she was actually forced to not spend a moment of her life living in the lap of luxury her spoiled ass would self destruct.

Than you track down the camp councilor who molested her when she was a young girl. You make friends with him and end up getting all the details. Using that you craft a plan that will put her in the exact same conditions she was in back then and using some keywords you learned from the councilor you can place her mentally back in that weak and helpless place and make her feel the terror and despair all over again.

CAUSE THAT WILL TEACH THE BITCH NOT TO RETURN YOUR FUCKING DS WHOLLY SHIT THAT HAS YOUR PROFESSOR LAYTON SAVE ON IT AND YOU WERE ON THE LAST THREE PUZZLES HOW THE FUCK YOU GONNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT UNLESS YOU ARE ONE OF THE THOSE DOUCHEBAGS THAT WATCHES YOUTUBE LET'S PLAYS?

No.10890 : Anonymous Stalker [2022-01-13 15:51] [Report] []

>>10888
I look like this and say this

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>>10860
So this is what "making things happen" looks like in 2022?

So sad, many such cases.

No.10917 : Anonymous Stalker [2022-01-14 20:37] [Report] []

it wasn't me though


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